9th
Sept 2012
AHO!
How can it happen with me? It is really very shocking
for me. My mouth does not want to get opened to speak out anything. My mind is still
going towards it again and again. Is my EGO becoming bigger? Am I wrongly interpreting the scenario? I am
not aware of what is happening to me right now. I am totally shaken & disturbed. It is happening to me after a long time. It is like a strong thunder in
the ocean after a long period of absolute stillness.
I know it’s all nothing and
thinking about it means foolishness, but I am doing so. On other side, I am
praying to get rid of it and surrender to him. Why it happened to me again and
why I am thinking and writing about it, I don’t know. Anything I can do is
Prayer. Bad happenings should be
shared! So…(Talked to a friend about this)…, I am writing the whole
event & whole scenario which I can see through my eyes. I have to come out
of it by experiencing it myself, no one can get me out of it by telling some
words like “It happens Dear!”, “Kuch ni hota, momentarily hai.”, etc. I
thought I have got rid of it. But NO! It is still there. I was
lost that time. I have to accept the
fact that some part of me is still there.
All I can do is JUST PRAY…
